But I really wanted to come here and let you all know that my dear, sweet, soulmate, Willow, died early this morning. I am devastated, heartbroken, angry at God, in deep despair, and full of grief. She was healthy by all accounts. She was due for her yearly but it had been put off because of all the deaths and the birth in our family. Yesterday was one of the first days I had been home all day in a while and Willow relished having mommy's lap to snuggle on. She was playful, happy, eating, drinking...everything seemed normal. We went to bed last night and she did her usual routine of getting lots of petting while she walked up and down the bed until she finally settled at my feet. At about 3 this morning I woke up because it felt like she swatted at my foot. I turned my cell phone on for light and heard her make a yowl, and then growl. I couldn't see her so I turned the light on and discovered she was under a lightweight cover I keep on the bed, but I think I had just kicked it over top of her when I jumped out of bed at her noises. At that point she was lifeless. No heartbeat, no breath. I was so desperate to bring her back I did mouth to nose. Nothing worked. She was gone.
Willow was no more than 10 years of age...I just don't understand. I'm hurt, confused, and just don't feel much like going on. We have an appointment to take her into the vet at 10:30 to have her cremated. I don't think we will do a post-mortem...it's not going help me I don't think. I'm just so confused.
Safe and gentle journey my sweet Willow...I miss you and will see you again soon. I love you. You are a very special cat with a huge place in my heart.
