Thinking of you today, Debbie. I know it takes a long time to get over a loss like this and you never really do. But it gets easier as time goes by...like with my sweet Honey (pup)...now I can think of her and the funny things she did and the places I took her. But I can't dwell on it.
You are so good to all the animals and the ones you foster. There must be a special place in heaven for your little ones you have lost...esp. Raz.