You'd look great in wings (a photo of my precious Willow)

[Tina B and crew]

Always has been one of my favorite photos of her...because it's so perfect. I miss her so much. Today is 10 weeks. I can't believe I haven't had her physical presence in my life for 10 weeks.

I was fishing under the couch for toys and found one of Willow's favorites. It set me off like a faucet. I've been bawling since. I found her stocking the other day too. I am sad to not be able to get her toys and watch her excitement at a new play toy. It has been very cold her for the last few days, and that really makes me miss her. Turning on the heated blanket at night to warm up my bed was always a ritual thing with my Willow. She'd come running and jump on the bed and give me pressies as if saying "Thank you so much for keeping me warm mommy!" God I miss that little cat like nothing else. I still find myself reliving that night/morning. I just can't believe she was snatched from me so unexpectedly. I think the holidays are making it tough, because I was doing Ok for a while.

Meanwhile, Lucy and Chunk are doing great. Lucy occasionally detects my sadness and will come to me as if she wants to comfort me. She's a sweet girl. It's very spooky sometimes with her though, because I swear I see Willow in her in brief glimpses. She also has taken to getting very vocal around the 3am hour...and that is when Willow left. I wonder sometimes. Anyway, sorry to ramble...I'm having a tough morning and guess I needed to let some of it out.


Cleo, I hope you are doing OK...think about you often. (((hugs)))

[Traci]

I don't know what to say Tina, except....I know what you're going through.

I want this year to be over, I never want to think of it again, ever, just make it go away!

(((((((((HUGS)))))))))

[momPaws]

Tina, I know how you feel. A while after I lost Honey I found some of her favorite doggie treats in a drawer...oh how I wished I had given her the whole bag. I still have some of her toys. Her fav little squirrel, Nutsy, is displayed by her picture. I think it takes a lot of time to grieve.

I wouldn't doubt there may be a spiritual connection between Lucy and Willow. It's funny, but sometimes I feel like Honey comes to visit in a very subtle way. So glad you have Lucy and Chunk and I have my little Angel. Love and blessings to you.


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[Tina B and crew]

Thanks Traci and mompaws...today is better, I'm not in constant tears at least. I have some work I have to finish in the next two days so I need to be on top of things and it is so difficult at times. But I'll make it through, somehow. Between the loss of my dad and Willow I'm surprised I'm still on my feet. They were two of my best gentle friends and I miss them so much. On a positive note, my grandson just turned 3 months old today. He's a blessing in my life and I love him so much.

[Tambrey]

aawww.....such a puuurrrrrfect picture of her...

It is hard....I look at my Gypsy and think "how many more days?...will she be here tomorrow?" she is 18 now and has been a part of my life for more than 1/3 of it...WOW...

Peace be with you in knowing one day you will be together again

[Tina B and crew]

Thanks gals...today is a little better, surprisingly since it is a cold, gray, raining/sleety day...those are the days I usually have a tough time. I still can't believe she's gone though, it just doesn't seem real.

I love my little Lucy and big Chunk...they really are two of the funniest and sweetest furbabies!

[k9Karen]

I love my little Lucy and big Chunk...they really are two of the funniest and sweetest furbabies!

I'ts amazing how having the others around can help ease the pain. I've felt it too.

[Cleo]

I can't wait for this year to be over and done with as well. My neighbor who was like a second grandfather to me suffered a massive heart attack a few weeks ago and passed away last Saturday. Mick was 89, a WWII vet injured in the war and such a gentle soul. His wife of 63 years is a wreck. I park in his yard and every winter he'd be out there helping ME shovel.

My mom's aunt who had been in a nursing home for the last 10 years passed away the night after Mick. Lily was 87 and led a hard life. Her father left her mother when she and her brother were young. She married and had a son who was born with a cleft palate. She would take him on the train to NYC for operations that she worked 2 jobs to pay for. Her husband left her during that. Her son grew up to serve in the military and then become a school teacher and was tragically killed in a car accident before he was 35. She never complained and always put others first. Her last few months were painful and full of suffering, she died of pulminary complications and we think something was up with her pancreas. The nursing home she was in sucked. The doctors there sucked but at least towards the end, hospice care made her comfortable.

At the funeral home making her arrangements, the undertaker was going over costs and I saw what it cost to cremate a human. A little over 300.00. I said to him damn, I paid 200. for my cat and then I started bawling. He told me a place he went to when his cat passed away and said they were great.

I cried again today when my mom told me she talked to her cousin who just went through the grief of losing her cat. Apparently the place she went to also did a great job with the remains. So of course, I feel bad for myself but moreso for my boy thinking I didn't do right by him. It'll be 3 months on the 16th but my heart is just as broken as it was the moment he left me.

That's a precious picture of Willow and I'm glad Tina that your new grandson brings you such joy! Thanks for thinking of me.

[Traci]

Cleo, (((((((((HUGS)))))))))

[drunkmike]

I just went through a recent loss so I can definitely feel your pain. It is really hard, but things get easier as the days go on!